So, it has been a while since I last came here to write. I thought that I had depleted my thoughts and came with all the imaginary scenarios possible that go on in my mind. Well, I was wrong.
I have now a new thought coming up. Firstly, I will begin with the assumption that we all act based on the best way to help our survival, supposedly. This is illustrated in nature’s term: survival of the fittest. So what really determines our character. Is it the people we surround yourself with, or the common beliefs of the family that we stay with (be it real family or friends). If so, when are we giving the choice to change and to choose our own path. When do we make the major choice of our personality determination that will stick with us our entire life.
Yes I was a coward hiding under the faults of others
Yes I was a coward only acting in my imaginative world and complying to others in real world
Yes I was a coward for never developing my own thoughts
Yes I was a coward for placing peoples acceptance and needs before mine
Yes I was a coward for depending on others
Hopefully not anymore
Once you see the right path you know it
Once you are happy in your own thoughts
Once you accept that we are all humans made equal
Once you understand that there is no ultimate truth
Once you stop thinking of others greatly and believing everything they say because of their authority
Once you start questioning the system with true intentions
Is when you are free of the cage YOU have been putting yourself in
After all, once pharaon was questioned why he made himself a god he replied: No one opposed me so I benfitted from the opportunity
If you ever think that you cannot control your life decisions or that you cannot make your own decisions, it is because you have made yourself believe this lie because you are comfortable where you are and you want to escape blame and questioning. Wake up!
Judge yourself before you judge others. When you find that you are giving excuses for yourself stop and start change.
In my case, my imagination fixes whatever problem I go through. That is wrong because I do not hold myself responsible for my actions, and I avoid doing actions on my own in the first place. This is cowardness.
After all, maybe we are knocking on the wrong doors on purpose, in order to get wrong answers that will keep us in our comfort zones.
Dear God, I address this message to you, please help me find the answer. It is true that we do not know any of the details and it is all a part of a bigger plan that we do not know anything about, and only you can control this mighty universe that you created, but please guide my way because I am so weak right now.
You created us, each with the desire to be achieving individuals and be the best. However, all we want is our self benefit. We claim to want the good for others while we are creatures who envy others, and hate others and compete with each other. In our trials to achieve greatness, we may destroy relations or people who care, we act in ways we do not mean. We are afraid of our true feelings. We cannot express our true emotions. Dominance and submission is the norm in our world even though we are all created equal. Why do some people choose submission in order not to upset others and keep their company.
What about religion, what about those who hide under its name thinking they are better than others because they do acts without thinking, without understanding them. And at every chance, they try to mend religion to their advantage. Yet they think they are righteous.
I, myself, am trying to achieve greatness, but am lost in the way. Please God guide my way, no one has the answers but you.
We attract, based on our acts, personalities that will live with us and stay with us.
“Matt Simons – Catch & Release (Deepend remix)”
This song is really good by Matt Simons, it perfectly displays my current feelings.